Happy New year!
I know its 9th of January 2020 and I am too late for a word of the year post. But as the saying goes, better late than never. So here I am writing this post and making the connection between us more personal. Because life is not always happy or joyful. Its about finding happiness in little moments.
While I picked up my word of the year in November 2019 and made myself a vision board in December 2019. I haven’t gotten anywhere further than that. Most of my days were spent getting scared of the what ifs and doubting myself. While the word of the year got lost somewhere in my mind.
I am a planner person. Last year I made my own planners and sold them. But this year I am not yet ready to do all the tasks as I had a surgery in October 2019 and I am supposed to take things slow for the first three months. While I feel my body is ok and can do all the running around. My cute mom is being over protective of me because of everything I went through physically and mentally since June 2018. But that’s a story for another time. Today let’s talk about word of the year.
What is a word of the year?
A word of the year is basically what you want your year to be like. The word of the year will help you align with your goals for the year. The word can be pretty personal for everyone. Here is an example for word of the year.
My word of the year for 2019 & why?
My word for the year 2019 was HEAL. I was in a poor shape of health both mentally and physically since mid 2018 and I really wanted to heal so that I can be me. So 2019 helped me heal my body and my mind. I have not seen my counsellor for over 4 months now and I have had a surgery that has taken care of my physical health. So all in all I healed in 2019.
Have you heard of Gaslighting? Well if you haven’t let me write down the google meaning for you. Gaslighting is basically manipulating (someone) by psychological means into doubting their own sanity. Well I was gaslight by my own father for the entire decade because the choices that I made were not of his choice. So according to him I was a loser, a failure and a nobody, instead of a fashion stylist, a blogger and a film making graduate.
I believed in his shit and kept on changing jobs and careers because a part of me always wanted him to be proud of me. But he really affected my sanity and I needed to HEAL from what I allowed to happen to me.
My word of the year for 2020 & why?
While I know who I am now, I needed to trust myself this time. To not only be called a Fashion Stylist, a Blogger and a Film Making Graduate but to create, to produce and to leave behind a body of work that I can be proud of. All I need this year is to BELIEVE in myself. To BELIEVE in magic and in the power of belief. If I believe everyday in who I am, if I believe everyday in what I do and if I believe everyday that abundance is waiting for me in this journey I will surely be who I am, do what I need to and have opportunities worth all the hard work I put in.
Some suggestions for word of the year
CARE (Self Care)